Bursts of Determination
March 21, 2006
What makes you feel determined? I’ve had several long haul determination spurts this year, and a couple short spurts during the last two days. Last year I graduated, with all A’s in my last semester (I add extraneously, just for fun. This year I searched my booty off looking for a new job and then I looked at SO MANY different places while I was searching for a place to live. I must have emailed at least 50 people. One day I looked at 6 different places. In one day!
Last night I came home vaguely unsatisfied, and then I said, no! I’m not going to sit and watch Sex and the City endlessly in defeat, and I bought a bedroom set and did some other things I needed to get done. Tonight I came home lonely and whined to you in the last post. But then, I said, forget that. It’s just time to kick my social life into high gear. And I invited people over for an impromptu dinner party tomorrow night.
This is not bragging. I once spent two years in my twenties living at home restlessly unable to get myself motivated. Believe me, I know of what Augastine speaks. (Maybe determination has it’s own anti-inertia?) I wonder what has gotten into me? Vision? Desperation? What motivates you?